-not talk about things or bring them up, or even try to not think of them out of fear of jinxing it? I do that. I also don't share things because people are judgmental and I usually don't want to hear their words of disapproval. There are only a small number of people that I feel I can share just about anything with and not feel like I am going to be immediately judged. That's probably not even true. Because everyone is judging, all the time.
Sometimes I wish I could be like Hiro on Heroes. Stop time. For how long? I don't know, at least long enough to go make myself a sandwich, have a drink, take a picture and read a newspaper article and then contemplate my next move without having to deal with a bunch of other people. I mean, sometimes I think,
What's with people??
They can be so cool and give you random fun positivity, and they can be such &#!%^$#@!&%@!! And a good way to put it would be that I have had a lot of the two extremes lately.
A few people have made me feel different degrees of horrible, but many others helped me get through all the drama and have shared really good times with me. Family and friends are so important, and when it's good people, your friends become the family you didn't have before and life can be awesome.
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